Participant of Igor Graf's training

I also had the insight that I really love making decisions myself! It brings greater satisfaction)

And when we got to the fourth week, all the tasks came to me unusually easily! Oh, I thought, what were you scaring me for) All the hardcore stuff unfolded behind the scenes. When I started mercilessly doing crap, any attempt to track that voice felt like watching the moon’s shadow on the Earth. I really couldn’t hear the voice. I couldn’t see it!!! And I was carried off into a total mess! But I started hearing very clearly the voices of my mom, my grandmother and other people. There turned out to be a whole crowd of relatives and acquaintances in my head. Phrases started sounding in their intonations. I even somehow stopped feeling lonely: even though they are no longer alive, they are with me! And they even live some life of their own, sort of)

And when it hits me, I discovered an interesting pattern in my body. I get drowsy. Several times I lay down to doze, and then I would start an inner dialogue with reflection. And, lo and behold, as soon as a phrase took shape in my half-sleep and I became aware of it, all the weakness vanished as if by magic and a surge came! Now that’s a real find!!! Better than working with a psychologist. Mariana Trench depth) For example, the belief “through suffering and goals I find my image (who I am) and my mission.” Like, you have to earn your mission through suffering. That all goals come with strain.

In short, to hell with the mission from the very moment I saw this! Let it be born naturally from what I do. There’s no need to look for it. And having one isn’t mandatory. And all my goals can be a joy. As long as I like it and it pays off, I do it. When I get bored, I’ll start something new that I like!

It really let me go!

And my biggest victory, or even admission, was that I am self-sufficient. And it is quite normal and natural to live without expectations. That my inner adult, whom I had long tried to find, is not a girl but a man. My most ideal and most beloved. He is my ideal partner. I always shifted onto men, with “love,” the projections of an adult, care, emotions and all that, and now when some crap happens, I hear a new voice inside me: “Veronika, you’ll cope. I’ll take care of it.” Because I am him. And I feel his inner tenderness.

My inner man is my true love) I saw him in a meditation)

That’s why I’m no longer afraid of being left alone. Because I’m always together with myself!

And the value of family is changing for me radically right now. From a “home front” to a “rocket,” sort of... I don’t really know yet myself. I’m watching; But it’s definitely something amazing, completely new and good for me and my loved ones!

And I also made sales worth 500 000 during the training and I’m very happy about it! Yes, that was my man at work)

And in general I’m somehow happy with a lot of things. I feel whole now.

So my training was a success. In an unexpected way! For me it wasn’t about effectiveness. It became a growth point in my first deep crisis, when everything had been achieved and I didn’t know what new thing to want.

Now I know! I saw myself in five years. More beautiful than Jolie and with a core like an angel’s. I was even blinded by the inner and outer beauty of this wonderful Me) I felt great love for myself at that moment! The way a parent can love their child. And even stronger.