Participant of Igor Graf's training

What’s telling: among other things I wrote there about a colleague I don’t much like, and yesterday she and I even got into a little scrap out of nerves. The best part is that she’s exactly the one I’m handing my clients over to))) And all this coincided with a visit from our Moscow partners, with whom we made a couple of serious blunders today. And when we were coming back from the airport, this colleague was throwing all her complaints at me in a raised voice... I couldn’t believe it, I didn’t understand what was happening:

nothing even close came up inside me toward her, a slight irritation stirred at the very beginning - and that was it. I even managed to calm her down!.. It’s such an awesome feeling, words can’t describe it... Freedom. Real freedom. Like a breath of mountain air after climbing to the summit. And today I was also looking for my attribute. Or rather, I had already found it online the day before: a ring with a diamond. My whole future was studded as if with reflections from the facets of a precious stone, and I decided - this is what I need. But _how_ I bought it... From this process alone I suddenly understood what crooked paths I take toward what I want. First decide what I want - and then begrudge the money for it and try to come up with something else. Then - come in and spend a long time choosing among things that are sort of similar but still not it, and even try choosing at random, without looking. Then look for something else that came to mind right that moment (I looked at a white gold chain, or a pendant), but still not take it - and go to another place. On the way, quickly and decisively google, realize that I had instinctively been heading exactly where I needed to go, get there despite a chafed foot (but stopping to eat on the way is sacred, yes xD), go into the shop next door, find out that something they have there would be cool, but right now I definitely can’t afford it, and go where I was heading. Decide fairly quickly - and then dash to the currency exchange, get served without a queue (it just happened that way), do everything, come back - and almost at the shop suddenly get stuck at a stall with half-price postcards... /facepalm/ good thing that at that moment I realized _what_ I was doing, and I did make it to the shop and bought my attribute. On the way home, in the underpass I made a big detour to drop some money into the hat of a saxophonist who was playing really, really well - and suddenly at that moment I realized _how much_ money I had spent, but the main thing - that for some reason it didn’t bother me at all. Not at all. And that I’m ready to keep paying for what I’m sure of - for _real_ diamonds, literally and figuratively. And that for some reason I believe I can get as much money as I need - and even more, and these are no longer just words I tell myself and write on the notes hung all over my apartment... I even cried a little bit. But there was no one around, and this time I didn’t alarm any passersby XD And so I thought: it’s not for nothing, Igor [Graf], that you talked about a year during which a lot will change. After all, maybe not right away, maybe not obviously, but there are changes. It’s just that there’s something I haven’t fully realized yet, something I haven’t finished working on, something I’ll remember after a while - and surely smack myself on the forehead saying: so there it is! It’s just that for some it goes faster - and for me it goes like this. But that doesn’t matter. The main thing is that the process is going, and I’m on the way. Thank you for that. For the fact that in many ways it is more than expected, even if not the way I imagined at the very beginning. <3